just some pics i found while clearing out my computer

sorry

i should feel something, probably happiness though i barely fell anything but aching sadness any more, why is it so important that i do this. that i have a party that i ask for presents when none of that is what i really want what i really need. i appreciate what you do for me but i don't know if i will manage to be strong enough to go through with it. there is too much uncertainty and loss in my life for me ever to truly let go and for that i am sorry, sorry i act selfish but it is the easiest way to act sorry i distance my self for you and sorry that i did not turn out as you hoped. i wish i could make it up to you but it takes too much out of me just to convince you let alone let my actions hold any feeling, the only word that i have probably said to you in ages that has any meaning is sorry. and i know i say it everyday for everylittle mistake i make you think i don't mean it but i do. ireally do. so.sorry.

Why?

you called me an actress, you told me I could act why don't you see I act everyday I fake my life, my happiness, my smiles yet you are so oblivious, Why? why can you not see, you make jibes and joke about me being emo or goth yet you don't see, is it ignorance or are you simply to busy to look closer, you are supposed to be there for me and in some ways you are and I am lucky to have you but you can never help me when I need it most, so please wake up and notice acknowledge I'm not the person you think I am

Prision

I feel so numb
like nothing can crack this shell
I can feel no happiness, joy or hope
only pain, death and sadness
where will i end up if i carry on?
i can't bring my self to care
no one sees my pain though
i disguise it so well
although i wonder if anyone saw through my façade
would they try to help me
or just let me stay
in my prison of depression

gothic faeries part 2

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Gothic Angels